On the heels of last weeks post on allowing myself to be
and waking up to a milestone of sorts, here are all the things on my brain today.
Things that may apply to you, no matter what your circumstance or position in life is.
Challenged and changed aren't negative terms in my life any longer.
I am empowered and I am proud as all f*cking hell.
I used to think nothing was worse than these following things :
Your parents getting divorced, not getting prom queen,
not getting into the college of your dreams, falling for the wrong man,
and being betrayed by someone you never thought would take you for granted.
I have seen it all, 27 years of life and 2014 has literally stole the show.
Things can be worse then what I listed above.
Most of your life, you see things as trivial.
You think you are untouchable, and nothing can shake you.
However we each have our own idea of tragic and trivial.
That is, until tragedy really strikes.
But we all learn the difference in our ways and in our own time.
If there is anything I've learned over the past 9 months...
It is to JUST BE.
Be myself,
be strong,
be happy,
be mad,
be curious,
be protective,
be smart,
be a bitch,
be careful,
be in the moment,
be aware,
be funny,
be witty,
be sassy,
be courageous,
be whatever my heart and mind wants me to be
and
BELIEVE.
Because life can change in a minute, people come and go.
People turn out to be something they aren't, or turn out to be better than imagined.
You get put in weird situations.
Tested and pushed in all directions.
Your faith will be shaken many times. ( a day!)
God gives you things you never knew you would need.
He takes you down a path of uncertainty and despair but he has a plan for you.
I've found SO much of myself in grief.
I AM A better person, even though I am changed.
No matter how lost and confused I can be at times.
I know myself and I stayed true to what I've always known...
And I simply just want to BE.
